Saturday, January 31, 2009

forgive me if i st-stutter from all of the clutter in my head

not Pictures, Images and Photos


theres a room i'm in full of people,its very crowded
I feel sorry for anyone in here that is clausterphobic
there are people sitting on top of one another people sitting on the floor
even people standing I mean I would be too who wants to sit on a dirty floor?
they're chatting away
some whispering
some yelling
some even crying
and most talking in a normal tone
I observe couples,siblings,and friends
I wish I had music to block out the noise i'm not used to it really
a nurse strolls in and calls out a name
I didn't hear it the first time but even if it was me I really didn't care
I hate doctors and doctors hate me I don't cooperate well
"Tracy" she calls out for a second time
the woman gets up and follows after the nurse into the hallway
one person gone means one seat up for grabs good thing I already have a seat
i'm getting disgusted at the smiles and laughter of people so I look at my shoes instead
I have really small feet
if there was a small feet contest around my little town I would deffinatly be a champ
a little toddler comes up to me and starts playing with my shoelaces
I smile
I have a little friend someone who actually wants to talk to me
well in this case play with my shoelaces but I bet in a toddler's mind it deffinatly means something
"Maddie! come over here right now! and don't bother that girl she looks upset!"
I give the mother a half smile
and then I turn my head and smile at the little girl I look at my shoes and reach down to tug on a shoelace thinking she would understand that it meant "thanks for trying"
I wish my seat was near to the window so I could look at the clouds and cars drive by
so I wouldn't have to look like some idiot trying to bury her face in her knees
you know how some songs have the lyrics "how do you feel so alone in a crowded room?"
or something similar to that?
well I have the answer right here...
its pretty damn easy.

Friday, January 30, 2009

I wish happiness could hang from trees like apples.

Helping Hand Pictures, Images and Photos



my darling,



always



when the whole entire world turns their back toward you i'll be there showing my front side



alway



when you have no more tears left to shed i'll cry for you



alwa



when you need a hand i'll give you two



alw



when you feel like you have lost all hope i'll be there with a flashlight



al



when everyone else sees through you i'll wear 10 times magnifying glasses

a

when no one will even give you a greeting i'll be there shouting "I LOVE YOU"


my darling,



Thursday, January 29, 2009

motor scooters strongly hate me.

I actually can now say I am a stubborn person...want to know why?
Well.. I went to sleep around 10 last night and I woke up in the middle
of the night tossing and turning with a poem stuck in my head that I was itching
to write down! I tried to shrug it off thinking that "hey i'll probably still remember it
by tommrrow why waste my time getting up searching for my tablet and pencil?" The thing
is... I just couldn't wait until tommrrow or any other time to write it down. So what did I end
up doing? I got up,put my glasses on,quietly opened my drawer to find my book light, my tablet
full of poems, and a sharpened pencil. I opened it quietly so my mom wouldn't ask why I was
up. She would think that i'm insane! She also doesn't know I write poems because if I happened
to tell her she would just say "Oh Ashley cut it out and stop acting like you're an adult you're only 13!" (Just putting this out there... my birthday is in 6 days!! (: February 4th) So.. back to
my story i'm not posting that poem on here for my fear of it being dumb. :P

Friday, January 23, 2009

B for Blogging

mirror mirror on the wall
i'm not a princess in a fairytale
you don't speak to me
although i wish you did

a poem from my boredness... hey! guess what tonight is... Friday! (bloggers on a Friday night)

Well today consisted of me feeling like shit not wanting to be talked to but the truth
is I felt much better once my friends told me how they felt about me about how
I have changed. I haven't really noticed that I changed a lot except for feeling depressed
and left out all the time. I'm trying to go back to the old Ashley. me.

note to self:: you're never alone

I decided to go on photobucket.com and you know how it says "recently viewed" or whatever at the bottom well it had the word "macro" and a picture on the box and i thought to myself "hmm thats interesting never heard of it" so me being curious i clicked on it to find out it was photography but a different way to take pictures.I then went on dictionary.com and look up the definition (no need for laughter :P)


Macro - Spelled Pronunciation [mak-roh] adjective, noun, plural -ros.
–adjective
1.
very large in scale, scope, or capability.
2.
of or pertaining to macroeconomics.–noun
3.
anything very large in scale, scope, or capability.
4.
Photography. a macro lens.



Macro pic Pictures, Images and Photos

macro Pictures, Images and Photos


Macro shot Pictures, Images and Photos


Macro Pictures, Images and Photos


Flash and the mouse Pictures, Images and Photos


A binder/leather macro shot. Pictures, Images and Photos


macro Pictures, Images and Photos

Monday, January 19, 2009

happy martin luther king day

birds Pictures, Images and Photos


I once had full wings
the strength to fly over rooftops
determination,courage raced through my vains
like a new person trying out crack for the first time
but gradually slower i was weakening
I could no longer soar over rooftops
I could only fly over a parked car
half the courage ten times the pain
my wings turned brittle and fell off in defeat
I then got ran over by the only car I could fly over

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Friday, January 16, 2009

you gotta <3 winter

Just another one of those cold winter school closing kinda days where I havesat here in my pjs all day waiting for something to happen...but never came. I'm thrilled and also disappointed in a way that we had a closing of school today i was thrilled because i finally got to see "Greater Latrobe School District" with the little white letters on the strip of blue across the tv that said "Closed". I always loved seeing that because i knew somewhere else in my city someone else was reading the same thing i was reading it made me feel connected of some sort like i'm not the only teenager hoping for a day off of school..i don't know i'm complicated at times. It disappoints me because that one day we had off gets added onto one more extra day of school before summer vacation. I actually like school i think i always have. I know kids are always saying "ew i hate school" "i only go for friends" but the truth is.. we all know that we do like to learn in some way even though you may deny it. Anyway,back to the cold winter day that caused school to close..as much as a i love winter and it is my favorite season..i need the 80-90 degree kinda weather. I miss it terribly like a long lost cat. A long lost cat that i shall call "Summer". Summer! please come out where ever you are! I miss your sunshine on my body that forced me to turn tan and squint my brown eyes.



I felt like sharing some pictures of sunsets in the winter from photobucket because right then and there looking out of my bedroom window with the snow sparkling on the ground and the sunset placed almost perfect in the sky i realized i was starring at only one of the billions of breath taking sites life has to offer.


Snow Sunset Pictures, Images and Photos


snow sunset Pictures, Images and Photos


sunset snow path Pictures, Images and Photos


sunset march 10, 2008 Pictures, Images and Photos


winter - sunset - sea - ice and snow - dogs - people - vuosaari - helsinki - finland Pictures, Images and Photos

Friday, January 9, 2009

Bloggers on a Friday Night

Welcome to the "Bloggers on Friday Night" woooo (:
for all you late night bloggers who are reading this be
prepared for some randomness and if you like this blog entry
comment it cause i may do "Bloggers on a Friday Night"
every Friday night i am at home if you guys like this idea haha. (:
oh and give me some ideas for what to put in here if you like questions,photography,
polls, anything haha

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*Ahem* Tonight for Ashley consisted of feeling nostalgic about my old photos that have the smiling faces of the ones i used to be best friends with,arguing with my boyfriend about how vanessa ann hudgens and miley cryus do not look alike,reading two and a half chapters of Evil Genius,listening to my first voicemail message i ever recieved,listening to apocalyptica songs,missing dylan,waiting for tommrrow,being bored from lack of skills to set up the playstation 2 in the living room for my long lost love Dance Dance Revolution,drinking lemonade,wanting bbq chicken from walmart,yawning repeatidly,killing ants,being pissed off at my computer for having a virus protection thing pop up every 4 minutes,being amazed at my phone for being on all day and still having 4 bars,hitting my knee off of the computer desk,wishing dylan was here to cuddle in my bed with me,hearing coughing and other weird noises from next door,and having to pee but too lazy to get up.


QUOTES AND SUCH!

1.) we are here to laugh at the odds and
live our lives so well that death will tremble to take us."
-Charles Bukowski-


2.) It's hard to believe we aren't those kids you see on the playground anymore.It's weird, to think that you were once them, and someday they'll be you.


3.)Is it wrong to assume that you missed me?
Because the look in your eyes says that you're dying to kiss me
The touch of your lips is tasteful and forgiving
A part of the past that I don't mind reliving


4.)Image and video hosting by TinyPic


Okay well thanks for reading! i'm going to go dream now (: *yawn*
goodnight.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in?

Today was alright. I just can't wait until the weekend until i can sleep in *hallelujah music*
The musical was fun especially for the part where Brendon got up and was like "I HAVE AN IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT" and it was something about Zac Efron ha ha (: Oh! and when Sean our director tried to get us to close our eyes and think about the musical it didn't work and everyone had their eyes open laughing cause it only lasted a good one minute.


By the way I hate the word "okay" anymore... its so annoying! Even though its a small four letter word it actually hurts me sometimes.

examples::
1.) me: i changed a light bulb in my room cause it burned out i got excited cause i haven't changed a light bulb in a while ha ha!!! (:
someone else: ..okay?

2.) me: Hey i'm really sorry for running into in the hallway i didn't mean to
someone else: okay

3.) me: no its fine i don't care *tears running down cheek*
someone else: okay

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

you can't always have a good day

sitting on the floor, guitar in my hands
its out of tune and old, ready to give out
with frustration building up inside me i keep trying to strum away
*pluck* *ping* *scratch*
with eyes burning and fingers shaking
no melody possibly left in my heart
you find me and give me a new guitar



currently listening to:: Wonderwall; Oasis

Sunday, January 4, 2009

suckish day

Currently listening to:: Mandy Moore - Only Hope

I woke up late around 12:46 p.m. when I really wanted to wake up around 12 because I needed to get ready for my boyfriend's arrival. Then I stressed out about looking nice so I tried on all these different outfits,fixed my hair,put on make up, and cleaned the house like a wild woman but then he IMed me and said he couldn't come. =/(i'm not mad at him I could never be mad at him) I then put my hair up,put my glasses on,put sweat pants on,put an old tee on, and searched for my homework in the corner of my room where I throw my bookbag. I threw my book bag a side and sat there on the cold floor with my head on my knees. Here I am all alone for the rest of the day with my mother at work and my brother sleeping. To top that its raining on my suckish day thats weird because I usually love the rain. I love to watch it fall down my window pane, dance, and walk around in it but it seems like the rain is mocking me today.. Yippie!! What a wonderful Sunday afternoon this is!


rain Pictures, Images and Photos

Saturday, January 3, 2009

A new year means a brand new blogging experience!

Hello there! I'm Ashley obviously
I'm starting a new blog thanks to my friend Matthew haha.
Anyway... I could be blogging (hehe funny word (: ) about anything my poems,
short stories,certain quotes I find that are interesting,what kind
of day I had,or anything that comes to my mind at the time I am blogging really.
So enjoy! (:


I feel concealed in a camera
grapsing onto memories
continually getting dropped
reviewing the moments
being black and white or colorful
ideas coming to you in a flash
-me (poem)

Quotes/Song Lyrics I like

1.] Some might say they don't believe in heaven
Go and tell it to the man who lives in hell
Some might say you get what you've been given
If you don't get yours, I won't get mine as well
Some might say we will find brighter day
- Some Might Say ; Oasis


2.] A New Year's resolution is something that
goes in one year and out the other.


3.] people often say that motivation doesn't last.
well, neither does bathing.
that's why we recommend it daily.
-Zig Ziglar

4.] a heart ain't a brain, but i think that i still love you.


5.] life is like a rollercoaster, too many unexpected turns.
but at the end, you just want to ride it again.


6.] “life is the art of drawing without an eraser.”
-john w gardner-